3 YouTube videos in 2 years

March 16, 2024. I uploaded my first YouTube video. A programming tutorial. Three weeks later, a second one. Then I stopped.

I felt like the content wasn't good enough. But that wasn't really it. People who know me know me as the technical guy. At work, in my circle, that's my identity. And I was terrified that actual programmers would watch my tutorials and question what I'm saying. With technical content, people can challenge you. They can say you're wrong, your approach is bad, you don't know what you're talking about.

There was also the format problem. The things I wanted to teach required so much context. You'd need to see this, understand this, experience this. The videos became extremely time-consuming and ended up far from what I actually wanted to say.

April 13, 2025. A full year later. I tried again. One more video. Still didn't feel right.

But something else was happening. I started building Edicek and realized that personal brand matters. Not as a technical programmer channel though. Maybe I just need to show who I actually am. Not the "senior developer" brand. The real person.

So I started planning. Collecting ideas, thinking about topics, researching cameras, figuring out scripts. What style should the videos have? What should I talk about? Months of planning. Zero videos.

November 27, 2025. I'm sitting at my desk, still thinking about all of this, and something just snaps. I slam the table. "I'm recording a video. Right now." I grab a small phone tripod, put it on the desk, put my phone in, and press record. My first TikTok.

And the block was gone.

Not because I suddenly got confident. Because the content wasn't technical. Nobody can challenge your personal story. You lived it. There's no "actually, that's wrong" in the comments when you're talking about your own experience.

3 YouTube videos in 2 years. Since then: 92 TikToks, 58 blog posts, 186 tweets. Since January I've been publishing daily. Same person, different format, completely different result.

I kept thinking I should have started earlier. That I wasted time. But I don't think it works that way. I simply wasn't ready. I had to go through certain projects, certain failures, a certain shift in how I see myself. The YouTube tutorials were forced. And when something is forced, it doesn't work.

If you're struggling with this now, if you're afraid to show your face or can't figure out what to make videos about, give it time. Keep it in the back of your mind, but don't force it. If it's meant to happen, it will kick in when you're ready.